First and foremost, I want to express my pride in you, my friend. I admire your decision to seek help, rather than wallowing in despair. It's okay to shed tears, but remember to do so within moderation. Taking a moment to relax, close your eyes, and take a deep breath will aid in centering yourself. Now, I want to share something I wrote during a difficult period in my life. Have you ever ridden a roller coaster? The thought alone gives me chills. What aspect scares you the most? Personally, the ascending portion isn't as frightening as the descent, which brings about an adrenaline rush. As you ascend, excitement builds and your face lights up. Then, when you come to a halt at a certain point, you question what lies ahead. Life then comes into play, saying, "Since you've been experiencing such highs, let me show you how it feels to fall." In truth, it's not a pleasant sensation, yet without the storm, there can be no healing. You dread the descent, wondering what's so great about it. You may wonder if you can remain where you are, without undergoing another fall. However, you find yourself falling nonetheless, as if all your fears have come true. With your heart in your throat and eyes tightly shut, you plummet downward. You lose hope, convinced you won't reach the ground in one piece. It feels like the end of your life, and you yearn to return to the high point where everything was blissfully ignorant. You plummet endlessly, losing yourself in an unending state of anguish. You may wish for it all to end, but you're unsure of how that would even happen. Before you have time to process anything, you experience another high, for this is truly a roller coaster ride. It's a journey of ups and downs, and the only way to escape is to eventually exit the ride. Unfortunately, this exit isn't always within our control. Remember, it's okay. It's alright. This is what we call life. The highs and lows that come your way are important. When that roller coaster takes a turn, your mind goes along with it. You don't know where to go or what to do, but above all, be kind to yourself. Have you ever considered that both extremes experience this confusion? In both situations, your mind is in a state of chaos. The only difference is that in one, it's excitement, while in the other, it's pain. In both situations, you're left wondering what, why, where, and when. All you know is that you're either dancing in happiness or drowning in pain. Both experiences are equally significant, helping you appreciate and understand the value of being neutral. Being neutral means having nothing, and when you have nothing, you possess the ability to create anything. Rest assured, my dear, you will continue to experience thrilling highs and dreaded lows until you exit this ride called life. The only thing that will change is your perspective. You've got this. Lastly, if you ever find yourself going through a difficult time without someone you can trust, try writing about it—it truly helps. And if writing isn't your thing, talk to your parents instead. Avoid sharing your life story with strangers online; I've made that mistake before, and I know many others have as well. Break the cycle, rise above, and focus on the beauty of science. I love you all!