The problem with the human mind comes when it tries to understand something which is beyond it.
Awareness, consciousness, being…
All these are simply words. Human mind is stuck in words and humans are mostly minds, meaning brains.
But reality is not related to the human mind. Reality has nothing to do with the human mind, it could just fine whether the human mind is here to define it, label it, want to change it.
Reality is awareness, it is being, it is consciousness.
All these things are actually one and the same when you go beyond the mind.
But that’s almost an impossible thing to do for a human. I don’t even know If you can.
Thus my advice would be to seek the clearest mind possible and grow in your own way.